When the House Feels Heavy: Letting God In Again

This episode is completely unscripted, unfiltered, and from the heart. Shannon and Deborah open up about seasons of spiritual drought, division at home, and feeling like God’s voice has gone quiet. Deborah shares her deeply personal journey of battling emotional turmoil in her marriage, the heaviness of unanswered prayers, and the moment God showed up through the power of intercession. Together, the sisters talk about the danger of letting small compromises open the door for the enemy — and how prayer, accountability, and community can bring breakthrough.

If your house feels heavy, if you’re weary from the fight, or if you just need someone to say, “You’re not alone,” this conversation is for you.

 Real. Raw. Redeemed.
Let’s get honest about what it really looks like to let God back in when we’ve been barely holding on.

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Transcript

Speaker 01: 0:16

Dear Heavenly Father God, we love you tonight, Lord, and we just thank you for this opportunity to speak. to other women, Lord, and we just pray, Lord, that you would just speak through me and Shannon as we be vulnerable tonight, as we be transparent. God, I just ask you to have your way tonight, Jesus, and bless every person listening to this podcast. In Jesus' name, amen.

Speaker 02: 0:37

Amen. Welcome back, family, and this is Unrelated Sisters Truth and Grace Conversation, and I'm Shannon.

Speaker 00: 0:45

And I'm Deb.

Speaker 02: 0:46

And we're so glad that you've decided to join us today. This podcast is going to be a Me and Deb talked about it today, and we feel like we've both just been in a season of lost or a season of trials, a season of inviting the enemy into our homes. l I said it earlier today. I feel like God usually comes to me, you know, and says, this is what you're going to talk about this week. And for some reason, I'm not listening. I can't hear him. And I don't know if it's the stress of last week. I don't know if it's life has just gotten in the way over this last week or so, but that's where we've decided to talk today. So this is 100% unscripted. It's going to be completely transparent and from the heart. So, Go ahead and lets get started.

Speaker 01: 1:43

So as I was telling you earlier, this has probably been one of the hardest seasons that I've been through in a long time. You think after you get saved and that you're living right and you're doing all the right things, that life's going to be easy, but sometimes it don't go that way. And for me and my family, this has been... And I just want to share this tonight to encourage... other wives um or moms or anybody that may be standing in the gap for a family member or maybe fighting a battle in your family where you feel like the enemy's coming and causing division um this past season probably for the past few months now me and kevin have not been i would say on the same page spiritually um and that's okay sometimes you know a lot of times uh I think he feels inadequate. And so he really allowed the voice of the enemy to tell him that he wasn't measuring up or he wasn't cold or that he just wasn't a good person. And so through compromise, I think that we allow the enemy to We opened doors in our home, even through music. We had had words because of the—and he doesn't care for me sharing this. I shared it Saturday. We're super transparent, and I feel like that's the only way to be. But, you know, I'm big on what I listen to. Since I have gave my life back to God, I'm not—and it wasn't that I was being judgmental to Him. I think the Bible says that you can judge—there's a righteous way to do it where you're not— I mean, there's, it's truth and there's not, you know what I mean? So he was listening anyway. So he was listening to music that doesn't glorify God. I'll just say that. And he thought it was okay. And so repeatedly I would say things to him, like what you're about, what you're listening to. And so to him, he was hearing that I was trying to judge him. And, um, So, and that's how the enemy works too, to cause division in your home. So he wasn't seeing it as that I was trying to help him. He was just seeing, I was trying to judge him. So anyway, it was causing, you know, the enemy comes in and causes division little by little. And so finally I got to where I wasn't saying anything to him, but it got to the point where our house had became, and it wasn't just to the music he was listening to. It was things that we could have just done better together, you know? And so we, we were just, going through the motions really in our marriage. And I was to the point a couple of weeks ago that I was ready to go. I was ready to leave. I had had enough. We were arguing almost every single day. And I know that if you see my Facebook post or you see me in person, you think, you know, everything's good and But a lot of times when you're fighting these battles, I didn't feel like at the moment it was something for me to share at the time that things that I was going through. So it was something I was really in prayer about. And I was really I was fasting and I was believing God to change my husband's heart and let us become one again. But I was doing all these things and I wasn't seeing the fruit of none of it. And I was felt like literally that my prayers were hitting the wall. Like, God, are you even hearing me? Like, where are you? Because if you don't change something, I'm leaving. And I had got to the point where I was even figuring out, like, how I would pay the bills. In fact, I was like, I could just go live with my mom. And so finally, two or three weeks ago, I did open up to my parents how I was feeling. And they tried to only because sometimes it is good to go to your and not just because my parents, I know that they are have wisdom in those areas. And I know that they could target their prayers towards us. And I know that they would do that. And so I talked with him about kind of what was going on, how he was acting. He wasn't being abusive, but he was being kind. He was saying things that he shouldn't be saying. You know what I mean? And so sometimes words hurt worse than the physical abuse. So maybe there was some emotional abuse, too, going on. And I have come to the point in my life where I was just like, you know what? I've done come past all this. I've done been through all this. And I'm not going through this. I know my worth today, and I'm going to set these boundaries. And that was big for me. And so I told God, Last Sunday, Sunday before last, God, if you don't do something, if you don't change me or him, or if it's me, change me. I know there's things that I can change, but you're going to have to do something. This is turmoil in my house. It's chaos, and I don't want to live this way, and I don't want to have Oren going through this. And so on Tuesday night, we didn't even speak all day Monday. Tuesday, he had the flu. Tuesday night, I went to a Bible study. with a group of women, and he was on my specific prayer list to pray for him. And so as the lady began to pray for him, she started calling him to his identity, because I couldn't even call him out to his identity anymore. I couldn't. To be honest with you, I was done praying. I had reached that point. I didn't have the strength to pray. pray for it anymore because i've been praying and praying and praying i wasn't seeing nothing happening so i was just like you know what god and god knew he knew i was at that place in my life and he knew that i had asked him for help and i cried he knew i was desperate and so um as i got into this prayer meeting and i began to pray and speak for kevin to rise up to be the godly husband and be the the man of the house and be the leader that all the things i had been praying for she didn't even know i've been praying for these things but she was calling it out and I really felt like I got a breakthrough. We locked arms that night. And sometimes I feel like you really need to lock arms with some women. Let me and you do, Shannon, too. Lock arms and get plugged in with women that will go to war with you.

Speaker 02: 7:47

Oh, yeah. You definitely need that when you're in a season of trials or trauma. Discouragement.

Speaker 01: 7:57

I was so

Speaker 02: 7:57

discouraged. Or where you feel like God's not listening, right? You need that intercessor that is going to... get down with you in the trenches, pray with you, pray over you, pray for you, right? And I heard something the other day, it's been a few weeks ago, and it said, they said, I'll call somebody to pray for me before I pray for myself. But when you've prayed and you've prayed and you've prayed, that's when you got called. That's when you've got to reach out. You've got to reach out to your mom or to your dad or your mentor or your pastor or another woman. Somebody that you know is going to be able to understand, not judge. Somebody that's going to be able to pray. As we've been doing this podcast, we've been asking for our listeners, what do you need prayer for? Let us pray for you. We haven't received that response and it makes me feel like, like, and I guess I've been struggling with this this week, right? I guess my season or where I'm at right now is I don't know where we're headed. Right. And not knowing to me is probably one of the scariest things in the world. But as far as you and Kevin go, and as far as we'll get back to me in a minute, as far as what you've been going through, you know, We've prayed over it together. We've discussed it off of the podcast together. And the two of you have come through so much, right? Deep down, you don't want to go, right? But Jesus had to step in. And it sounds like he stepped in pretty big.

Speaker 00: 9:45

He did.

Speaker 02: 9:46

Right? Yeah. Tell them the second part. Tell them about what happened

Speaker 01: 9:51

on Wednesday. So that was on Tuesday night. I went to the prayer meeting. I went home on Tuesday night and didn't speak to him again, even though he was sick. And I was really bitter at him. I'm just going to be honest. I was really bitter. Because I feel like I'm just wasted all this time. And I even told him, which I had to repent and ask him for forgiveness. I had told him, if I had known four years ago that it was going to be like this, I would have never waited on you. And I told him that. But at the moment, I meant that. I'm just going to be real. I meant that. Because I was like, it wasn't supposed to be like this. You told me this and this. And I had seen this. I had seen you be a different way. I'd seen you be the man, the Kevin, the mighty man of God. And then to see you go backwards, it was just super frustrating. And so Wednesday night, he came in and said, He was like, hey, can we do something? And I was like, what? He said I was like to get up in the morning and 30 minutes early and start doing devotion together again. I'm like, okay. So I didn't say nothing else about it. I said, okay, because I didn't want to push nothing because I wasn't even trying to get him to do devotion with me. I was just doing my thing with me and God. And because I always felt like he thought I was just pushing him to do stuff, and I didn't want it to be like that. I didn't want him to do anything out of performance or because of me. I wanted him to do it because he wanted to do it. Yeah, because if not, it's in vain anyway, right? Yeah, and so the next morning, his alarm goes off at 4 o'clock, and I'm like, Lord, he's for real about this. So I get up with him, and we get our coffee, and he pulls out his Bible, and he's like, all right, Lord, what do you want me to read to my wife today? So he gets over in Corinthians and starts reading to me about love. And we're really laughing about things because I'm like, see, they weren't God speaking to you. And then he would say it back. So he was reading aloud to me the whole time. And then so when he got done, I said, well, I'll pray for us for the day. And we hadn't did that in a long time either together. And so I said the prayer and prayed just for us for the day. And when I ended the prayer, he picked up. Where I left off and he said, God, help me with the things that I struggle with. Help me to be a better husband. Help me to be the man that you've called me to be. Help me to be a better dad. And he said a really good prayer. And so when he gets done praying, I'm bawling, crying because I'm like, this is what I've been. It was a breakthrough moment for us. And so he had an encounter with God. And I know it was during our prayer meeting or during that night or during the day Wednesday. I know God intervened because. Kevin's a different person today. Kevin is the man I knew before. You know what I mean? That when he came back to God and surrendered his life back to God and he was just loving and which I know every day is not going to be. I know you're going to have you're going to go through things and you're going to get upset and things like that. But when I tell you it was just complete turmoil in our house and now the atmosphere has completely changed like crazy. My house is just so peaceful now. And we literally, he's been submerging in Billy Graham. And when I had sent him a song from Brandon Lake on YouTube, he called me and he's like, I'm not going to listen to YouTube. For him, it was just to cut it off, the music. And I didn't tell him to. I didn't ask him to. So I know how to be a God bang. You know what I mean? And so he was like, I'm just going to listen to some preaching because he really likes to listen to preaching. So now he's got me more. Like I've been listening to things and it's really been helping the both of us. And so now we're being able to share that with each other, what we're listening to throughout the day, what we're learning, things that I've been praying for for the last over a year. And I said all that to say that just when we think it's the end and just when we think that it's over or that we've done all that we can do and we sit still and just let God do it, It's amazing how things change, and I can't say it enough, and you just had to have been there with us every day, what it's been like these past few months, and to have been there this past week, how it's been a total, total change in my house.

Speaker 02: 14:07

Well, you know, I heard this the other day on the radio, and they said, you know, David's head was put in the mouth of a lion. We don't, and he walked out the next day, right? And we don't see that kind of grace. But do we? I mean, it sounds like to me, you've seen it this week. Yeah, for sure. It sounds like to me that, you know, what you've been praying for and what you've been needing from God and what your relationship has been needing. You walked out of the fire today. You know, you walked out, you walked out, you know, you and Kevin walked out together hand in hand. And, you know, we may not. face a giant and we may not you know we may not find a burning bush but to me that's the ultimate grace right what he what he shared with y'all this week is the ultimate grace and i just want to touch on where kevin came from to where he is today there's going to be moments where he's not going to feel good enough right there's going to be times that Because he's a real baby in his faith. He wasn't raised in faith. He wasn't raised with God around him. He wasn't raised in those times. He's met God through you and through your family. And so he's truly an infant in his faith. And he's grown up fast with it, right? So he's going to have those moments. And you being able to pray for him for over the last year, you know, and get to a point where you're just done. But being able to stop for a moment and say, okay, God, look, I need something. You know, that's giving grace. That's showing grace, you know, to your partner and to your lover. And it's...

Speaker 01: 16:07

It's almost like it's– and I texted him this the other day. I said it's like God has– because I had told him two weeks ago, I said, listen, I love you, but I'm not in love with you no more. And I meant that. And that's why we can't go off of our feelings because even though I didn't– I knew I– I didn't feel like I loved him, but I knew I did. You know what I mean? So– Just because you don't feel like it on those days doesn't mean you can just up and leave. You know what I mean? And so I even told him the other day, I said, I really feel like that God has ignited a new love back in me for you. He took the blinders off my eyes to let me see him the way he sees him. And I think he did that for Kevin, too. One of the things Ashley prayed over him was that God would—she said, I see an acceleration in him. And I'm seeing that like God is just, this is things he's speaking in the wisdom. Just in this past week, I'm like, where did you even hear that? Where did you learn that from? You know what I mean? And it's always been, it's been in there. You just have been hiding it. You know what I'm saying? But I'm just so grateful today that God loves us right in the middle of our mess. And that even these seasons that are ugly, that nobody knows about. That you don't want nobody to know about because you want it to, you know, because I know the Lord has called us into so many things. We're doing this podcast. I'm doing this Bible study with these young women. And you know when you're doing things for the Lord and walking in your calling and your fulfillment, I know the enemy is going to, the main thing he's going to try to do is fight your family. Oh,

Speaker 02: 17:39

yeah. Because that's the one place he can get

Speaker 01: 17:41

us. Yeah.

Speaker 02: 17:41

That's the one place he

Speaker 01: 17:44

knows. And distract you. I was so distracted.

Speaker 02: 17:46

Yes. From where we're supposed

Speaker 01: 17:48

to be. Yeah.

Speaker 02: 17:49

And he knows that, right? As mothers, he knows that attacking our family is going to... take us off course or you know point us make us look at something differently than where we should be looking at it you know and just because we do this podcast or just because we do the women's group with the people and just because you know god is calling us to do all these things doesn't mean we're not human

Speaker 01: 18:16

oh for sure

Speaker 02: 18:17

right it doesn't mean that we don't make mistakes or we don't see things wrong right sometimes i have to hit my knees and pray

Speaker 03: 18:26

right

Speaker 02: 18:26

sometimes i have to you know i have to do i have to ask questions right um we were laughing downstairs before we come up here to do the podcast and uh we were talking about uh cleaning my house before you come over every week and

Speaker 01: 18:43

i don't know why she does that because i don't care

Speaker 02: 18:45

Right. You know, but I can't. I can't let company in my house without my house being clean. There can't be dirty dishes in the sink. The tables have to, you know, there can't be clutter sitting around everywhere. There just can't be. I just can't do it. Right. Just because that's the way we live from day to day. When company is coming over, we can't. I can't be that way. I have to. And my son laughs at me. But the minute I said today's Wednesday and Debra's coming over, he's like, I got to go clean my bathroom. And he jumps up and runs upstairs.

Unknown: 19:14

Yeah.

Speaker 02: 19:15

you know to clean his you know he's like my bathroom's a mess and i've made him that way right i've made him that way but it's okay you know i don't mop the floors and wash the windows like i do for christmas and thanksgiving when people are coming over or the fourth of july like next week i'm on vacation i will I will wash my porch and get all the outside ready for company to come. When it's just everyday dirt, the dirt's going to still be there when they come, but I'm still going to do it because that's just how it is. I appreciate the things that God has given me. I appreciate this house. I appreciate the material things that God has given us because I've never had it.

Speaker 03: 20:01

Right.

Speaker 02: 20:02

I've never had it. But like my husband, you know, today I've been frustrated with him lately and not really frustrated. Not like we don't we're not fighting and arguing, but there's times that I just get. So I work 80 hours a week. I drive an hour and 20 minutes to work every day, an hour and 20 minutes home every day. So I'm on the road for three hours a day, five days a week. You know, the two days I'm off, I'm cleaning the house, I'm washing clothes, I'm cleaning the kitchen, I'm doing all the wifely things, and sometimes I get burnt out.

Speaker 03: 20:39

I get

Speaker 02: 20:40

tired. I get frustrated, right? I mean, I come home last night, and I didn't get home until like 9.30 last night. I had to work late, and I didn't get home until like 9.30 last night. And I told him, I was like, you need to stop and we can do some dinner, because it's going to be like 9.30, 10 o'clock before I get home. So he had stopped. Well, He stopped at Checkers while his bag was sitting in the seat on the couch. And we sit in the love seat together. That's our seat. And so I sat down on the other couch. And he's like, you can't pick it up and throw it away. I'm like, no, it's your trash. It didn't hurt me to pick it up and throw it away. Right. But that's been frustrating for

Speaker 03: 21:17

me.

Speaker 02: 21:18

But not talking about my husband. This last week... Usually on Sunday afternoon. I usually get up on Sundays and I come upstairs here to where the podcast is and I turn on my worship music and, you know, and I sit down at the computer and me and God have a conversation and we talk about the upcoming week and we talk about the podcast and we talk about what's happened over the week and just all of that. And then Monday morning, going to work. God bless. slaps me in the face with what we're supposed to talk about this week. I didn't do that this Sunday. I didn't come up here. I didn't spend time with him up here in this room. And I've been coming up here and praying every Sunday and just spending time with him up here. And I didn't do that this Sunday. And Monday, he didn't slap me in the face. Right. And then I know you were getting worried because you text me yesterday and you were

Speaker 01: 22:16

like, I didn't hear her. I'm not. That's not like Shannon. Right. And for me, it's normal. You might not hear me to that day, but Shannon's usually prepared.

Speaker 02: 22:26

Yeah. I'm usually right on it. Right. I already know what we're doing. I already, you know, I've listened and it's like, I told you, it's like, I don't hear him this week. Like I don't hear him. And I, Or I don't feel him. I don't feel his presence. I don't feel, like I just feel distracted. But I don't know what went. Like I don't know, I don't know if, because last week was a big deal for my company and a big deal for my store. You know, we had in-store inventory and that's three days of very long hours, very, you know, being very focused on what's going on in the building. I don't know if that's got me... Something has me distracted. And I don't know what it is. And I don't know... And I'm not doubting that the podcast is not God-fed, God-led. Not 100%. Because I know that's what it is. I know this is what God wants us to do. And I know, you know, I've had... umpteen people this week tell me, oh, your podcast is so good. Like every episode is so great, you know? And, and, but I think it's because I want people to interact with us, right? Like I want the listeners to send us prayer requests. I want the listeners to comment on things. And I never needed validation for anything that I do. Cause when I do something, I put my whole heart into it and I know I'm doing the best that I can do. But for some reason, like this week, like I feel like I need validation for what we're doing.

Speaker 03: 24:01

Yeah.

Speaker 02: 24:02

You know, when we first started this, you know, I brought you over and we had that conversation that when stuff gets hard or when I get bored with it, like I'm ready. I'm just done. Right. We talked about all the equipment I have for making T-shirts. And, you know, if I want to do one or two, it's easy. But if I got to do more than two, it's complicated. And I don't want to do that. I'd rather pay somebody to do it. You know, and I don't know if. if that's where I'm at in my mind, but it's all in my mind. Cause it's definitely not in my

Speaker 03: 24:29

heart,

Speaker 02: 24:31

you know? And I don't know, I'm feeling, I don't know. It's not, I'm not overwhelmed. It's not like I have, I don't, I'm not like you, you know, I don't have baseball games and cheerleading practice and I don't have, you know, I don't have team birthday parties to go to. I don't, you know, all I have is work and this podcast and then, you know, whatever, whatever, You know, me and my husband are together or whatever. It's not like I'm overwhelmed with things going on in my life. But this week, I've just felt blah. Yeah. Blah. And when I try to spend time with God, it's like my mind goes somewhere else. Like, because usually on my drive to work or drive home, That's when I worship, right? And I've been playing my music. Like, that's not changed. Like, I've been listening to the radio, you know, and usually the DJs say something that sparks something in my mind or sparks something in my heart, you know, that makes me want to research it. Because, you know, when you listen to the DJs for three hours a week or three hours a day, seven days a week, you know, they have to say something profound, right? You know, and I talk about a lot of things that I hear on the radio, but like this week, it's like I didn't hear anything they said.

Unknown: 25:43

Mm-hmm. Which, how?

Speaker 02: 25:46

Like, I still drove, right? I was still in the car. The radio was still on. But I just felt distracted this week. And I guess that's why the podcast has went this direction this week.

Speaker 01: 26:01

God knew.

Speaker 02: 26:02

And maybe that's what we need. Maybe that's what I needed.

Speaker 01: 26:06

It didn't have to be outlined or just come in and... Maybe

Speaker 02: 26:12

talking it out is what I needed to do. Oh,

Speaker 01: 26:14

yeah, for sure.

Speaker 02: 26:16

You know, about, I don't know, about needing, you know, somebody to pat me on the back. I don't know. Because that's weird for me. Like, you know, like Kim was talking about earlier today, like, I do all kinds of things for the community, right, and where my store is. And I do, I don't do it out of curiosity. because 90% of the time, nobody knows I do it. I don't do it for recognition. I do it because I have the means to do it. My company gives me the opportunity to feed back into the community that we're in, and I enjoy it. So 90% of the time, the community doesn't know that we're the ones funding the things that are going on or that we're the ones that are donating the stuff that they're using and all that stuff. But it brings me joy to be a part of it and to be in the shadows But like, I don't know, like this week, I just, I feel like I need, I feel, you know, and it's emotion. It's an emotion, right? You can't go off your emotions. I mean, I guess this is what this whole podcast has been about, right? You can't go off your emotions because it's an emotional thing, right? It's not because I don't need foundation. I get validation from the one I'm supposed to get it from. Right. You know, he makes me positive and he gives me joy every day. And like you said, nothing or no one is ever going to take that joy away from me again. Right. I'm not ever going to put myself in the situations to where my joy is in question. I refuse. I refuse. I'm just not ever going to be there again. Right. I think when we go through seasons, um,

Speaker 01: 28:24

We forget sometimes. I don't know. I think sometimes things are just going good. And then when we do hit those bumpy roads, we're like, wait, what is this? You know, we can just go to the Lord and just, Lord, what is it that's distracting me? What is it that's hindering me from hearing your voice, being in your presence? Whatever it is, remove it. Or come on these podcasts and be transparent and just talk it out. And you're like, won't you talk it out sometimes? Sometimes. You're like, well, Lord. That's all you really need to do. Yeah, all I really need to do is just vent and talk to somebody about it. But tonight, I really just want to encourage the women, the men, whoever's listening, that when you're going through hard times and you're going through these seasons and you feel like your prayers are bouncing off the walls or you feel like you're not hearing God's voice or the enemy's causing division in your family, just hold on. Just hold on. I was thinking if I had left on that Monday night or Sunday night, what would it look like?

Speaker 02: 29:31

Where would you be?

Speaker 01: 29:32

Yeah, if I hadn't went on to the Bible study. Because I wasn't even going to go. She posted it on Facebook and my daughter wanted to go. And so anytime that she is trying to get involved, I try to go with her to support her. Yeah. Because I had been praying in that area as well. And so I was like, yeah, I'll go. And then my mom said she would go. So it really was all of us and then two or three of them. And not only did I get a breakthrough, but my daughter did as well. She was able to walk through some unforgiveness that she had held. And so I really think when we think we're not hearing from God, we really are. Because the Lord was telling me to go that night and be obedient. And I'm glad that I did. And I'm glad that I didn't give up.

Speaker 02: 30:18

Well, I mean, we wouldn't be here today if God didn't keep telling me you had to go. You had to go to that women's conference. You and Chelsea had to go. Y'all had to go. I couldn't let go. And I'm not one to usually beg somebody to do something

Speaker 03: 30:33

with

Speaker 02: 30:33

me. That's not me, right? I ask you one time. I remind you a second time. I don't usually ask a third or a fourth or an eighth. And I usually don't. I'm usually like, well, if they don't want to go, they don't want to go, right?

Unknown: 30:46

Yeah.

Speaker 02: 30:47

But God would not let it go. Like, it just, you would not get off my mind. You would not go away. And I guess that's why we are where we are today. Yeah,

Speaker 00: 30:56

we needed

Speaker 02: 30:57

that. You know, where we are. But if you happen to follow God, but you know what? You can't ask what if.

Speaker 01: 31:03

Oh, for sure.

Speaker 02: 31:04

Right? Yeah. If may only be two letters.

Speaker 01: 31:07

Well, I know.

Speaker 02: 31:09

But if... It's such a word of the enemy.

Speaker 01: 31:13

No, I'm just saying though, if I had to gave up and not, and just, that's what I'm trying to tell you. Don't, I'm trying to encourage them not to give up because had I gave up, I was, I was one day away from my breakthrough. One day away. One day away. One day away. So whatever you're going through tonight, you may be one day away from your miracle, your breakthrough, whatever it is that you're believing God for. Because the Bible said, he's no respecter person. And if he did it for me, And when I tell you that God performed a miracle in my husband, he is a different man, a total different man. And I love him. I didn't love him last week. I'm just going to be honest. He was mean. He was ugly. But God performed a miracle in my marriage.

Speaker 02: 31:59

And He can do it for you, too, whether it's your marriage, whether it's your children, whether it's your job, whether it's just getting up out of bed every day. And I prayed. When I first came to faith, you know, my daddy was still in addiction. And I would pray for him. And I would pray for him. And then I'd quit praying. You know, and then something would happen and I would pray for him. And I would pray for him. And then I'd quit praying. You know, and that went on for years. Went on for years. And when he started drug courts... I seen him a few times at Walmart and I hadn't really seen him a lot between then and there. And I would see him at Walmart, you know, and one time he came up to me and he goes, are you praying for me? I was like, yes, I am. I've been praying for you for months now. He goes, would you please stop? And, you know, the transmission had fell off his truck and he caused kitchen on fire and just like all these traumatic things that have all this stuff had happened to him, you know? And he's like, I was like, well, then I guess you need to listen. You need to listen to what God's trying to show you. You need to listen to what God's telling you. And I continued to pray, and I put his name in the thing at church. And so the church I was going to, they've got 1,500 members. So there's 1,500 members praying for him to find his way. And it didn't happen today, and it didn't happen overnight. But he was deep in. The enemy, right? Like, he wasn't just losing his way. He was lost. But he brought him from that.

Speaker 00: 33:36

Oh,

Speaker 02: 33:36

yeah. Right? Like, I mean, he's five years clean. You know, he's running his own NA meetings. You know, he is a prime example of it, you know. And you and Kevin, y'all are a prime example of what God can bring you from, you know, as far as the world. But just because you come from it doesn't mean you can't go back to it. There's a song and it says there's a million ways to hit rock bottom, but there's only one way out. And that's what we're here to do today. We're here to encourage you, no matter where you are in life, no matter what is going on in life, that God is there. He's always standing there. He's always standing in the fire with you. I can think about myself in situations that I should not have walked out of. He had to have been standing there. His hand had to have been on my shoulder. There's no possible way now that I'm clean that I can think, like, I know people that did walk out of those

Speaker 01: 34:39

situations.

Speaker 02: 34:40

You know what I mean? And I'm not just talking about jail. I'm talking about dead, like die in those situations, you know. And he had to have been sitting in there the whole time. You know, so he's standing there with you. He's just waiting on you to ask. Yeah.

Speaker 01: 34:59

Lord, we love you tonight. And God, I just pray for every person struggling, every person that feels like they've been in a defeated season, God. I just pray that you would go right where they're at, encourage them. And Lord, I speak your anointing and your fresh fire over their life. And Lord, just how you restored my marriage and my family. I ask if they're going through those seasons that You do the same for them, God. I pray a turnaround anointing on their life. Just as you turn Kevin around, I pray you turn around whoever they're praying for tonight, God. Lord, I just thank you for Shannon. I thank you for this opportunity to sow into other lives, God. I just pray that you would just continue to keep us connected, to keep us plugged in, to keep us on your path. In Jesus' name, amen.

Unknown: 35:49

Amen.

Speaker 02: 35:49

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Speaker 01: 36:19

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